Life's so complicated... At least for me it is... I've said this so many times before but I still haven't managed to change my way of thinking... Although I will be so much more relaxed without all these moments of anguish and of endless, meaningless wobbling around my thoughts of what will or won't happen... I lose so much precious time and patience tossing and turning around over matter i can't influence but that might influence me... I just hope to make myself a little less attentive to everything, a little less caring... I wish I could adopt the "I don't care what happens" philosophy... But God made me sooo complicated and there are moments like this when i expect so many things to happen and that thought fills my mind in every single second and then flourishes in many, many other ideas which come to no end... And here I am again, losing sleep, writing out of impulse, hoping to find a moment of calmness, but all i get is annoyance from trying to doze off, impatience from waiting, butterflies in my stomach from the uncertainty...
Life is complicated... If not, i make it that way...
